Pieces of my life

It has been sometimes since i have posted up anything well this time..i might go a little bit emotional in this post as i am going to leave my 2nd home soon. Right now, what i need the most is TIME!!! i hope i can just stop the time...wish i could choose not to take another step in my life...i just....don't want to leave...

I have never felt this way before, my heart is aching...heavy...as each second goes by my heart beat a little bit slower. The attachment is just too strong....it is too late to rewind...

Last night, it was the 1st time I prayed to God...i have never been this way before...i lost my confidence...the clock is ticking and I could not stop it. In my prayers, I asked God "God are you there, could you hear me out...(pause for a moment..), i am going to leave this country soon, i know it is just 700km away but i the time is too short...i want to spend more time with my friends...could you froze the time...even it is only for a moment...please.."

To all my friends you know who you are...
"Thank you for coming into my life...although it has been only a while, you thought me many things in life. You shown me the meaning of friendship..all of you....you are the one who make me who I am....i could not stand on my own without you guys..i will never be able to keep all the problem in my heart...you guys & girls came and share the weight. I have cried, I have laugh, I have gone wild, I have gone crazy,....all i wanted to say is i appreciate it with my whole heart...I hope all of you felt the same way too and if i were to say wrong things or have done wrong things..i would like to apologize..."